• 2 Days From 42

    I have loved and been loved
    I have betrayed and been betrayed
    I have succeeded and I have failed
    I have been married and watched the horror of it falling apart
    I have been broken and have put myself back together again

    In the midst of heartbreak and feelings of annihilation
    I rose out of the ash and here I am.

    Parts of my life have exceeded my wildest dreams
    Some of my dreams will never come true
    Yes, some of my dreams will never come true.

    In the midst of heartbreak and feelings of annihilation
    The light finds me and I know I will rise again.

    I aim to be fully present, ALIVE, fluid and free.
    Yet, Sometimes the opposite is moving within me.
    If you see this, please don’t ask someone else about it.
    Ask me! the person who is living this reality.

    In the midst of heartbreak and feelings of annihilation
    I touch the soft spot within me
    and get stronger in this vulnerability

    I expand, I contract
    I rise and I fall
    I teach what I am here to learn.
    I seek, I have blind spots, and I have great love for our humanity.

    We are all humans here on this path, and sometimes we are contradictory.

    2 days away from 42
    I have lived a very full life
    With its ups and its downs
    With its ebbs and its flows
    With its loves and its heartbreaks

    If on my path of learning I have done harm to you, please forgive me.
    Just like you, I am human, too.
    ...2 days from 42.


    Photo by Julie Skarratt Photography Inc